Be Here Now

This blog is more for me than anyone else, though you are welcome to look. I plan on uploading a self portrait a day along with a description of how the day went. Or something like that... We'll see.

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Day 28.o
Monday’s… I fail at homework today. Photos are more fun.

Day 28.o
Monday’s… I fail at homework today. Photos are more fun.

Day 27.o
Another fabulous day. Waking up early was brutal after the night we had but it was worth it. I went to disney on ice with my darling little cousin (in law) and we came home and took some fun pictures. I love my boyfriends family they are really becoming my own. 

Day 27.o

Another fabulous day. Waking up early was brutal after the night we had but it was worth it. I went to disney on ice with my darling little cousin (in law) and we came home and took some fun pictures. I love my boyfriends family they are really becoming my own. 

Day 26.o
What a good day, hung out at home, went to the farmer’s market, interviewed Gabby at my favorite wine bar, went out for dinner and drinks and stayed up until 3am with some Spanish men. The way life should be. This is an old photo of me. I didn’t take any today…

Day 26.o

What a good day, hung out at home, went to the farmer’s market, interviewed Gabby at my favorite wine bar, went out for dinner and drinks and stayed up until 3am with some Spanish men. The way life should be. This is an old photo of me. I didn’t take any today…

Day 25.o
Friday… Ikea, spending too much money. Whooop.

Day 25.o

Friday… Ikea, spending too much money. Whooop.

Day 24.o
Uneventful day… my friends are being weird and I am reminded of how few true friends I have. Oh the Seattle freeze… I’m ready to go somewhere new.

Day 24.o

Uneventful day… my friends are being weird and I am reminded of how few true friends I have. Oh the Seattle freeze… I’m ready to go somewhere new.

Day 23.o
The issues discussed yesterday haunted me today… I cried a lot and then got creative. In class we had a heated discussion about women’s equality which made me realize how much more we have to fight for and how stupid people are. Sigh… 

Day 23.o

The issues discussed yesterday haunted me today… I cried a lot and then got creative. In class we had a heated discussion about women’s equality which made me realize how much more we have to fight for and how stupid people are. Sigh… 

Day 22.o Barely there. I’ve been reflecting a lot today about my mother. How she raised me and where she is now. I realize that she has left me. Left me for better business prospects. Taken my younger siblings (ages 12 & 14) and moved to the east coast. 3,000 miles away. She had an amazing well paying job where she was. Her career has became more important to her than me and my sisters. Our relationship is on the back burner and maybe it’s not something that developed but something that was always there. And now I feel alone and abandoned by the person who should be there more than anyone else…And more importantly her decision is hurting my relationship with my siblings, I can’t be there for them when they need me. I can’t be there for their first real dates, homecomings, proms, etc. And that is the worst part of all. Because more than I value than my relationship with my mother, I value my relationship with my sisters.

Day 22.o Barely there. I’ve been reflecting a lot today about my mother. How she raised me and where she is now. I realize that she has left me. Left me for better business prospects. Taken my younger siblings (ages 12 & 14) and moved to the east coast. 3,000 miles away. She had an amazing well paying job where she was. Her career has became more important to her than me and my sisters. Our relationship is on the back burner and maybe it’s not something that developed but something that was always there. And now I feel alone and abandoned by the person who should be there more than anyone else…And more importantly her decision is hurting my relationship with my siblings, I can’t be there for them when they need me. I can’t be there for their first real dates, homecomings, proms, etc. And that is the worst part of all. Because more than I value than my relationship with my mother, I value my relationship with my sisters.

Day 21.o
Mondays mondays mondays… nothing much to report, homework and school. Here is an old self portrait

Day 21.o

Mondays mondays mondays… nothing much to report, homework and school. Here is an old self portrait

Day 21.o
Today we woke up and did some intense high interval training instead of a jog. I like it a lot better then jogging… It takes 25 minutes and works better than an hour of jogging but it kicks your ass. Then farmers market and homework at a cafe. What a successful Sunday plus the extra hour is quite nice. 

Day 21.o

Today we woke up and did some intense high interval training instead of a jog. I like it a lot better then jogging… It takes 25 minutes and works better than an hour of jogging but it kicks your ass. Then farmers market and homework at a cafe. What a successful Sunday plus the extra hour is quite nice.